Dear Rya D.,I can't believe you're six months old today! Time is flying by. I wish I could press pause on life right here right now because you are so perfect. So easy. So small. So lovely.
Last week I stopped breastfeeding. Something that makes me a little sad and a little psyched. Sad because I will never experience that beautiful bond ever again and psyched because my nipples will never leak in public ever again. I lasted as long as I could and considering the problems I had with low milk supply, I'm pleased to have lasted six months. One day you will be a mother and you will understand the beauty and sacrifice of breastfeeding. It is awesome.
Oh, to be a mother is awesome—and a privilege. I know it's totally cliché to say but you have made my life complete. Last week I was shopping and bought some silly, little ceramic tooth boxes for you and Currier for when you lose your teeth. When the saleswoman was wrapping up the pink and blue boxes, it hit me that I have a boy and a girl—the perfect (and lucky!) combination—and I felt so complete. So happy.
I lost my mother when I was a young girl. Losing her taught me to appreciate my relationships and to love with all my heart. It was Mother's Day last week—a day that for many years symbolized loss and sadness for me. But now it symbolizes fulfillment and sheer joy—thanks to you and Currier. You are beautiful proof that life goes on.
Rya Diane, you are named after the mother I lost and you are a constant reminder of everything I have. I don't want you to ever grow up and yet I can't wait for you to grow up so we can be best friends. You are my second chance at the mother-daughter relationship that I missed out on. You are the daughter I always wanted. I love you. I adore you. Thank you.
All my love,
Mama
9 comments:
What a great photo and sweet letter.
Beautifully written even though it left me in tears! You always provoke so much though in me and give me chills at once! Happy 6 months Rya!
Mona,
Thanks. I really loved your tribute to Nathan for his third birthday- classic!
Allison,
Oh thank you. Sorry to make you cry. Be sure to stop in the next time you're in Charleston!
You are such a thoughtful, honest, caring and fun Mother, Coleen. You're children will always know that they're treasured and loved for exactly who they are. We all feel it reading your letters to them & I bet they'll tear up reading them years from now the same we do today. Life has given them a wonderful gift in you!
Tanya,
Thank you so much for such a kind compliment. I wish you lived closer so we could raise our kiddos together! Miss you.
Why do you have to be so damn endearing, you make it a little too obvious that I am not checking on claims when there are tears rolling down my cheeks!!!
You made me full-on cry at work. Damn you!
Cheryl and Rachel,
And it makes me crack up that I made you two cry at work! Ha ha! :)
Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Sniff. Sob. Ugh. Whimper. Sniff. Sniff. Your mom is so proud...I just know it.
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